Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Carrousel


Sometimes my life feels like a carrousel.
It goes round and round with its ups and downs. 

Today we went to the zoo and the kids got to ride on a carrousel there. 
We have been busy while being on vacation. 
Shopping and sightseeing. 
Visit to the beach.
Birthday party and hanging out with friends. 

It is hectic.
I'm having a hard time finding time to everyone and everything. 
I think I'm up rather than down. 
Turning around faster and faster. 

Tomorrow we will divide up.
My cousin and I will be downtown. 
Sightseeing and visiting the art museum. 
I am just hoping to be able to visit with more friends. 

 My carrousel keeps turning around. 
Not willing to stop anytime soon. 

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Family


I have some very good friends.
For me they are family.
They want me in their lives. 

They accept me for who I am
and when I'm down they try to bring me up.

They love me for who I am 
and does not try to change me. 

My family is a mix of blood relatives
and friends who have chosen me.
I am blessed.

Sunshine


So far this summer the weather have been dreary. 
We had a week or so with sun and warm temperatures. 
The rest of the time it has been gray and rainy. 

We are so excited to go to Seattle.
The weather service reports really nice weather when we come. 
We are in need of some sunny weather. 

I wanted to go out running today.
The rain and wind made be stay inside. 

Found this quote on Pintrest.
It reminded me that I need to carry my own sunshine on the inside. 
A smile in my heart.

Friday, June 20, 2014

Random thoughts




Worrying


I saw my therapist today and we reflected upon my habit of worrying about days past and days coming. I am a worrying person and it sure does steel me of strength. 

I worry about what others are thinking of me. I worry if they like me or not. I worry that others might get angry with me. I worry that it is my responsibility to make everyone happy. I feel like everything that goes wrong around me is all my fault. 

My mind knows I am not responsible in any way for other peoples happiness, but my body disagrees.  I know that what people think of me is not my problem as long as I am myself. If people don't like me then they can stay away from me and I will leave them alone. I know that most of the time it isn't my fault what happens, but still my body takes responsibility for all of it. 

Every day I spend so much strength and energy on this that I am constantly tired. My heart is almost always racing and I have a hard time breathing. My mind is racing with thoughts of what I should do or what I should have done next time I meet or see someone. I just can't stop myself from doing so. It might be normal to some point, but not to the extend I do it and I know it.

I am always working on ways to avoid these thoughts and ways of reacting, but it is difficult on my own. After this summer my therapist and I will work on new strategies on managing this. 

Then maybe I will be able to stop worrying so much and finally start living life to the fullest. 

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Look at our living room in Norway

Our living and dining room is one great big room and I wanted to show you parts from it together with the kitchen. Come join me on this little tour. 
One of my favorite corners of our dining room area. The suitcase was my parents, the black and brown boxes on top were writing cases belonging to my grandparents on my fathers side made by my great grandfather, on top is a small iron from my grandmother on my mothers side. Behind the candles is a small tray made by my uncle, the red box is a heart given to me by my cousin, and on the wall is a clock, currently not working, from my grandparents on my fathers side. In the frame is a record that my husbands grandfather plays on. 

Our TV corner. The three pictures left from right are one a gift to me from the University of Tromso when I graduated, two a gift to Sofie from my cousin and three a native american art piece from my husbands father. The big chest under the TV is my inheritance from one of my favorite uncles who died almost ten years ago. 

The fire place. The lantern was a gift from my aunt and uncle, the milk pail was here when we moved in and the big round pail is my dads old bathtub from when he was a child. 

I like it simple, but my windows are filled with plants. 

The dining room area with the door to the kitchen. 

On the other side of the kitchen door and across from the fire place. My husbands drum set and my book shelves. A little crowded, but I'm trying to organize it better. 



Our kitchen with its one green wall that we will paint as soon as we can. I made a great big magnet wall for all the papers that comes into our house from a metal sheet. It is my favorite part of the kitchen. 

So that was the tour of our living, dining and kitchen. The rest of the house consists of four bedrooms, a bath, a powder room, laundry room and several small storage rooms. 

Thank you for visiting.